Gene Keys Journeys
The Mystery and Pain of the Sphere of EQ
Much of the deep thought that allowed me to arrive at the insights from my SQ sphere occurred last May on a solo camping trip along the St. Croix river. The photo is from my campsite, a good cross section for how I chose to nourish myself over the weekend. I may have shared this in other places. I do so to be hoenst about my own process and be clear about how I approach The Gene Keys.
My 2nd pass through the Venus Sequence began in September 2022 and I wrapped it up at the end of August when the geometry of the pearl appeared to me in a vision.
I spent almost a year digging, and digging, and digging deeper.
I had some useful insights emerge from my Purpose, Attraction, and IQ spheres. When I got to the sphere of EQ, I pushed pause and decided to pitch a tent, build a fire, cast out my line, and go fishing for answers that had thus far eluded me.
This sphere, unlike others, never quite opened to me the first time around. Here I have the 62nd Gene Key, 6th Line.
The Shadow is Intellect, the Gift is Precision, and the Siddhi is Impeccability. It is activated by the Mars placement and imprints us from ages 8-14.
The first time, I remember thinking, “Okay, yeah, I definitely can over-intellectualize matters of the heart”. I never saw it play out and never consciously witnessed its impact on the people around me until recently though.
The 6th Line Keynotes of the EQ are Alienation in the Shadow and Reverence in the GIft/Siddhi. This part never really clicked for me last time.
Did I feel alienated? How does Reverence relate to Precision or Impeccability?
A mini opening arrived when I looked into the other Gene Key in the same Codon Ring - the 31st. Here the shadow is Arrogance. Richard in this one talks about how we can never see the ways we are arrogant on our own, we need feedback.
It is so easy to see other people’s arrogance and nearly impossible to see our own. The Gift is Leadership. The Siddhi, Humility.
He talks about spiritual arrogance as the belief that your way is the best way. This one struck a chord. Even though I know in my heart that there is no “one way”, my behavior and, more importantly, the tone of my voice often say otherwise.
I’d managed to catch a baby shadow. I took the insight and filed it away. I knew there was more here for me, and I felt encouraged by the opening.
This led me to a definition of Intellect that was workable for me. Intellect is the complex web we weave to maintain our illusion. Intellect is self-deception.
Intellect is twhen your mind tricks you. Precision and IMpeccability is the journey of learning to trick your mind.
It is the house of cards, the bubble that can be popped at any minute. Eastern philosophy calls this “the Maya”.
A couple of months back, I went on a solo camping trip along the St. Croix River. I needed some space to be alone with my thoughts.
I consumed some plant medicine, went on a hike, and spent a lot of time staring into the fire I had built at camp and thinking deeply.
As I called the Sphere of EQ into my Awareness, I began to meditate on the words as I stared into the flames.
“Intellect” “Precision” “Impeccability” “Alienation” “Reverence”
I trusted that some combination of these words added up to something greater than their parts, and, like a knife in my chest, it hit me:
I use my Intellect to Alienate people if they don’t see things the way I see them.
I use my intellect to alienate people I love. People feel alienated by me. Even if what I am communicating is true, and the content of my words is fairly benign, there is a tone in my voice that carries a vastly different message.
I sat there dumbfounded, mouth agape, and allowed this realization to sit with me. It was deeply uncomfortable. I had drunk the proverbial Halahala and was determined not to swallow it or spit it out, but it hold it inside of me, in the cauldron of my awareness, and let it transform me.
And so I continued to look at it. I re-read the 62nd Gene Key, the 31st, and revisited the lessons from the Venus Sequence Online Course (highly recommended). I asked ChatGPT what “Reverence” meant, and asked a few of my friends what it meant to them.
Often with The Gene Keys, the content is pointing to something that cannot be described with language. So by approaching it from multiple angles, the picture emerges.
The EQ holds a very tender pattern. Because it rules the period of time from 8-14, when our emotional body fully incarnates, it often stems from a stressful or confusing experience we had during this time.
As I deepen my contemplation here, I know that my intellect cannot crack this code, this is a place of embodied emotionality, and the more I can be in my feelings, the more I can be guided into the gift.
In this realization lies the potential for a pivot, a way to create emotional space within me, and to hold myself in that space like I wish I had been during that time in my life.
One thing you may not know about me is that I have a stutter. It’s fairly rare these days because I am able to slow myself down.
From 8-14 though, it was something that was on my mind in every social interaction. When it was my turn to speak, I would pray to god that the words would JUST COME OUT.
It’s an endearing story to those who hear it now, but the reality of my experience during the ages of 8-14 was torturous.
What was wrong with me? Why can everyone else speak normally? Why won’t this word come out of my mouth? And why am I crying about it now? I had no control.
Bottom line, I felt like an Alien, and one who had no control over his speech. I felt alienated. Now I use my capacity, words, language, and facts to alienate other people - hallmarks of the 62nd Shadow.
Somewhere here, as I keep looking at this, feeling what happens in my body as I tune into my emotions, I trust that the true meaning of Precision and Reverence will manifest in my words and actions.
I want to speak with others from a place of deep reverence for their wisdom and their unique emotional process. I want to see them with my heart, not through the lens of my own illusion.
I don't want to make people feel alienated. It’s painful to know that I am responsible for this experience in other people and, no matter how uncomfortable it is, I have to keep looking at it, and, more importantly, keep feeling it.
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