Scorpio New Moon Newsletter

Back to the Drawing Board

Some of you may recognize this rock if you’re in Minneapolis

It’s been a while. I haven’t written about or looked at an astrology chart since July. Why the deviation?

At the time, Astrology stopped inspiring me. I wanted to switch my relationship with astrology and my writing. I noticed that many of my astrology posts contain things like “This is what we should do, now” and “This is how to work with this energy”.

I wanted to switch to doing more writing about my own experiences. I wanted to tell more of my own stories and connect to that part of myself.

And, I wasn’t sure if my spiritual side was useful for the current stage of my career.

Let’s Catch up Quickly

Some of you probably are aware that I have been focusing my entire being on building my business and honing my work with Purpose. This has, without a doubt, been an essential part of my work. And, I still wrestle with how to do all of this.

Am I neutering myself by disconnecting my work from spirituality? Am I denying my power by not talking about Astrology, The Gene Keys, and spirituality as much?

Am I trying to appeal too broadly?

It’s been a struggle at times. It’s also hard to argue with the results. I had the 2 biggest months of my career, financially.

I’ve implemented systems and structures that will be with me for as long as I continue working with people 1:1.

And then, last weekend, the rug got pulled out from under me.

I had 3 spots left to fill in my 8-week intensive program, Empower Your Purpose. I had 5 calls scheduled with qualified clients. I liked my odds. If 3 of them sign up, I’m full, and I can breathe easy.

And then, slowly but surely, it fell apart. On Friday, all 3 of the calls I had scheduled were canceled on me the morning of. Sunday, another one canceled. Monday, the 5th person canceled. All something about money, time, etc.

These were ALL people who fit my ideal client attribute list. It’s hard to deny a sign like that.

Clearly, something isn’t quite right here. But what?

Scorpio New Moon

I’ve joked this week that putting our Daylight Savings Time snap back in the middle of Scorpio Season is beyond fucked up. It’s as if we realize, all at once, that we’ve been living in a fantasy world, in the midst of the darkest timeline -ie. Scorpio Season.

And it’s not just me. Everyone I talk to is getting tossed around by the struggle bus. Unforeseen expenses. Family crises. Financial instability. Relationship crossroads. Shadows coming up again and again. Patterns repeating themselves.

It was time. I had to know. What the FUCK is up with these planets right now?!

It was comforting to see for me. The New Moon is at 20° Scorpio, conjunct Mars, the co-ruler of Scorpio. Mars is about our energy, masculinity, work, and how we penetrate the world around us. There is a directness to Mars that is immature and childish at times. It provides the basis for the sexual nature of Scorpio’s identity. Mars is impatient. Restless, even.

Mars can’t sit still.

And Mars sits directly opposite Uranus on this new Moon. Uranus, who has been parked in Taurus for several years already, is reminding us of our uniqueness, authenticity, and potential.

This opposition can feel like we’re being ripped apart at the seams. Tension. Turmoil. Life. Conflict.

Potential.

Mars and Uranus are big energies here. Mars in Scorpio is resourced to go hard after what it wants. Its intensity is focused, and it will use the force of exertion to do whatever it takes. Mars in Scorpio might actually get a round peg to fit in a square hole.

Uranus in Taurus says, great, but if you’re doing that at the expense of what is real and authentic for you, ima tell you. Uranus says that your will is only a part of what drives you. Sure, you may get what you want, but at what cost? Is it worth it to you to compromise?

Who cares if you got the round peg to fit? That’s not where it belongs.

Am I Listening?

Uranus opposing Mars here is a blessing, even though it complicates Mars’ focus and determination. Mars wants things simple, cut and dry. Uranus is chaotic, complex, and cryptic. Enigmatic is a good way to describe how Uranus manifests through us. When Uranus is trying to tell us something, he speaks in riddles and koans.

Mars’ hardheadedness says, “Get to the point”. Uranus wants us to turn this problem over in our awareness. We need to understand the texture of our experience and really listen. An insight is building. A breakthrough is coming.

This is where the Gene Keys come in. Sun, Moon, and Mars all occupy the 43rd Gene Key.

Deafness is the shadow, and I’m doing my best to listen. What, exactly, am I listening for?

In the 64 Ways, Richard writes,

“We don’t waste energy being someone we’re not. We don’t follow someone else’s purpose. True Insight makes life simpler, not more complex. It’s funny that the more evolved we become, the simpler we make our lives. It seems to be a mystical equation.”

My work with the Gene Keys has really deepened over the last few months. I keep hearing how people need help with this transmission. I know of the incredible potential in this transmission, and I know there is so much more to be found.

And so, I have to wonder, What am I not hearing? What am I not listening to?

The only answer that makes any sense is that I’m not listening to my true nature. I’m not listening to what I know to be true. I’m not being my authentic self

I’m ignoring the signs that the universe is trying to convey. I’m trying to be someone I’m not.

And that shit is fucking confusing!

Taking a Step Back

Part of what inspired me to revisit astrology last week was seeing a reply from one of my readers as I cleaned out my inbox (Side note: I really love hearing from folks who read, it’s as simple as replying to this email).

It was the Full Moon in Capricorn essay, and I shared a lot about my dad and one of my painful childhood experiences in it. I talked about how Capricorn climbs the mountain but often gets too fixated on a single mountain, losing sight of the majestic mountain range it sits in.

There is a time and a place for intense focus and single-pointedness.

And, every so often, you have to check in and check your assumptions. Are they still true for me? Have I learned anything that contradicts why I started that climb in the first place?

Is any climb really ever wasted, even if you never reach the top?

I think this last question is one that I’ve learned a lot from over the last 6 months.

I learn from the climb. I get stronger, better, and more skillful. It’s not just that I climb a mountain, but the mountain climbs me too. Even if it’s not THE mountain, the one I am here to climb forever, I have learned invaluable skills for the next climb.

As Alex Hormozi says, “The work works on you more than you work on it”.

It’s an opening and a closing, diverging, then converging. I open myself up to possibilities and then I focus and channel what I learn.

It’s breath.

I have to both create space for new ideas and inspiration AND have the capacity to shut them out and focus on one fucking thing only. And listen for when it’s time to transition.

What Have I Learned?

It’s probably for the best that I didn’t sell out my program. The money : time ratio wasn’t as balanced as I needed it to be.

Owning a coaching business is a TON of work. So much goes into that weekly 50 minutes that I spend with clients. Marketing, sales calls, churning out content, and working to maintain a clear container for people to find themselves.

I need to charge more. I want to charge $1,000 for the program. I need to charge $2,500 for the program. The story I tell myself is that I don’t have access to people who can afford that.

It’s time to merge these two worlds. I LOVE working with folks to build their purpose, and I have found that most people need support integrating their purpose into their lives and building structures and systems to hold themselves accountable to it.

Accountability has come up a lot in the conversations I have with clients. Most people know what they need to do, they’re just avoiding it. They don’t know how to hold themselves accountable to it.

They know they should meditate. They know they should stop getting so much takeout. They know they need to get more sleep. They know they need to get up earlier. They know they need to get off of Instagram.

And they don’t do it.

My experience and belief is that the only way to establish oneself in embodied self-authority where we can hold ourselves accountable over the long haul is by serving something bigger than us.

This is why purpose matters to me.

Purpose demands that we both surrender control and take control.

The only thing that can hold someone internally accountable is their purpose.

Most people can’t navigate the roadblocks in their lives to embed and embody their purpose.

Too much needs to change. So they think it’s not possible.

How am I responding?

For now, I am still offering my 8-week Intensive. (If you’re even curious, I encourage you to set up a 30-minute connection call. Just respond to this email)

A few people have wanted to step into long-term coaching after the 8 weeks, because they are so excited by their purpose, that they want to bake it into their lives, and that’s where this work gets really interesting.

That’s where we learn how to negotiate boundaries. That’s where we learn to take action. That’s where we learn how we’re holding ourselves back. It takes time to integrate it into your life.

There’s space in the 8 weeks for whatever you need. If Human Design comes up, we’ll dig in. If you need help with the Gene Keys, we’ll dig in. If the planets are going wild, we’ll talk about it. If you want help building a consistent meditation practice we’ll do it.

Expect big changes in January, mostly relating to price and program structure.

What I know, now

I promise that I’ll maintain a connection to myself and the stars. I promise that I will continuously return to myself.

I promise I’ll get lost, again.

I am committed to the work of the Gene Keys, indefinitely.

I am committed to building and nurturing friendships. I am committed to remembering who I am, and listening to the world around me.

I am committed to understanding. I am committed to being a better version of myself every day.

I’m sick of judging other people. I’m sick of thinking I’m better than others. I’m sick of my opinions of how people should be preventing me from celebrating how people are.

I’m sick of thinking that you should be any different than how you are, right now.

I’m sick of not knowing how to love and support you best.

I want you to feel my love for you. In my eyes. In my voice. In my words. In my aura.

I want to trust you more. I’m trying.